Did the depression cause the retirement of Cristian Bonilla? the former goalkeeper responds to Jhonny Ramírez


Cristian Bonilla’s retirement from soccer has surprised the guild of this sport in Colombia. Only 28 years old and a track record that includes 9 national titles, 4 international titles and the individual prize for the best of his position in 2013 during the Esperanzas de Toulon tournament with the Colombian National Team, showed a great future ahead.

However, the young man born in Manizales one day got up and said “it’s already good”, That’s how he told SEMANA TV.

The unknowns and questions began to arise. One of those who raised the most questions was Jhonny Ramírez, former player of Millonarios, champion with the ambassador in 2012. “Guillermo Celis recently spoke of depression, today it is Cristian Bonilla who announces his retirement at the age of 28. Do any leaders of Dimayor, Colombian Federation or Acolfutpro wonder about the social and human part of these athletes? This has a psychological and emotional background, ”he wrote on his official Twitter.

After the approach presented by Ramírez, SEMANA spoke with Cristian Bonilla and inquired about his mental and emotional health.

SEMANA: Why did you make this surprising decision, what happened?

Cristian Bonilla (CB): “It was already something that I had been thinking about, it was not easy. I end up thinking about myself, the dreams I have as a person and that has more weight. It no longer felt the same, the same love and passion and I had to put myself in charge of my company in Miami. I no longer dreamed the same and that is why I had to be honest with myself, the profession and the people who are by your side. I had been making a career in something else at this time”.

SEMANA: How does one lose one’s passion at the age of 28? Or, better yet, what happens in the soccer union that even James Rodríguez says he wants to retire quickly?

BC: “That will only be understood by those who have played for a long period. Football gives you many things, but it takes away others in terms of time, family and you begin to think about the things you have stopped living. I think of my 28 years of starting businesses, doing other things, I have the time and the desire to do it. I put on a scale what weighs more, my dreams as a person or those of playing football and before being a footballer I was a person. I also didn’t want to be traveling from one city to another for soccer. I like to be in a fixed place and with stability”.

SEMANA: Did you lose your ambition, your desire to win?

BC: “I have always been a winner in football and in my life. On the contrary, I made a decision that many say is hasty and others do not. But for others it’s about personality, getting out of my comfort zone which is football and experimenting, that’s ambitious. These are things that happen and they only understand what we have played”.

SEMANA: Did what’s behind the ball saturate you, the businesses, entrepreneurs, the threads that are being talked about?

BC: “I was tired of things and I did not agree very much with certain handling of situations and that weighed on me, although not entirely. I did not agree on many things. My reasons are my business, not feeling the same passion and for these things that I did not agree with and was not very willing to tolerate.

WEEK: Like which ones?

BC: “That your happiness depends on the decision of a coach or president if you play or not. This is not just kicking a ball. October and November arrive and you think about your contract, renew or not. If a manager or x influential person of a team dislikes you and even if you seem like a super good goalkeeper, they don’t take you for other reasons. That ends up touching part of your happiness.”

WEEK. Jhonny Ramírez asked to think about the social and human part of athletes. Does yours have to do with mental health, emotional or depressive situations that have made you make this decision?

CB “Thank God no, I had difficult moments. I did not touch depression, a couple of colleagues have. But what Jhonny Ramírez says is true and I would somewhat support that questioning. Mine is surprising for my age. I want it, I want it and no one forced me. Many of my colleagues are scared because they surely depend on football or we become very attached to this sport.

SEMANA: Who was the best coach who directed it?

BC: Juan Carlos Osorio.

SEMANA: The best partner you had?

BC: “Juan David Cabezas, Alexis Henríquez, Sebastián Pérez and Andrés Marmolejo”.

SEMANA: What dream did you have yet to fulfill in football?

BC: “Playing a World Cup for adults”.

SEMANA: Your greatest achievement and happiness in football?

BC: “Put on the number 1 National shirt.”

SEMANA: What message do you send to those who followed and criticized you?

BC: “To those who supported me and not, thank you very much. It was 13 years of a very nice career, more successful moments than difficult ones. Tell them that I always gave my 100% for the same love I have for football. I know I’m not here to give it all. To all journalism, people in this guild, God pay you. This life is very short and if you don’t feel the same, think about it. I fulfilled the dream of 90% of the children”.